[QUEEN OF HEARTS ...]

Asalam-O-Alayikum
I question
I doubt
Ifear
I wonder
I melt and go willingly back into your arms
Oh, but we are not together,
we just, satisfy each other,
no harm done there right?
But I'm still in love...satisfaction is not enough...
Did I do the right thing by walking away?
Is this the path I am supposed to take?
Just friends, nothing more.
All thefeelings still there,
but we choose to ignore.
Yet we still kiss, still touch, still play...
I'm fine with that...but sometimes
I wish you would stay...
Because when you stay I feel safe..
.When I'm curled up in your arms I feel like this is where I belong...
and then all to soon reality hits me.
Your not really mine anymore,
and I'm not really yours.
I mean I am...in my heart always yours...
but right now i need to block our doors.
I need some time to get things straightand
you need to get your head on right
before I try again
.It hurts sometimes,
but for now I will pretend...
I will smile and laugh and play as nothing more then a friend.
Because this is how we are to live right now.
This is what I need,
this is whats best somehow...
So as you drive me home
I sit silently saying "I still love you"
but saying nothing out loud,
just looking at you fake smiling
as I say "goodnight"